Yesterday, was the first day I started clearing my leave and oh god was it shiok... hahaha.. Lemme recount, I went to eat pepper lunch, gym, play pool, den hk cafe dinner, then immediately after that was beef kway teow and frog leg porridge at geylang..woohoo! wahahah haven't had such a shiok life for ages. spent so much on food alone, but i dont really care man. As in, thats the last thing on my mind..hahahas. prob going out for a while later and after that off to Msia! dont know wad to do at kh's house man, but we shall find out huh..hahaha..
And im damn damn unfit la.. my whole body is like aching, after like slightly more than half an hour's gym? this is bad bad bad..but wahh can see a bit of effect. I gotta keep it up mann.. i shall blissfully omit the portion where i couldnt wake up to run this morning.. This is my kind of life baby..hahahah.. anw another nice song..

"Hey There Delilah" - Plain White T's

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me, girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

its saturday..hari raya..and im in camp enjoying myself in this pathetic 5m by 5m room. I gotta do something to entertain myself aint it?? Im reaching the end of my hell week..just a lil bit more and im thru..
I really dont wanna do that stupid shit which has nothing to do with me anw..but why do i stil have to do it?? its super sickening sia..
on a lighter note, when i took cab home on thursday, how coincidental that i met someone who was guns trained as well..haha but in the good old artillery days..how coincidental is that la..and we were talking about all the nonsense that happened in the trainee days..
and as i sat down and thought about it, actually it aint so bad..all these things would not be such a chore if not for the people who make it so unbearable..its the people who make an environment conducive, and not the other way round. Even with the same amount of workload, if positive guidance was administered to junior people, instead of just the physical dumping of work, life would be so much more enjoyable inside there. and if there weren't so much politics and backstabbing, it would be so so ideal.. too ideal to be true.. i guess its time to wake up.. nobody gives a shit..its a sad sad world of each man for himself..its sad why more often than not i would conclude on such a depressing note..but i guess its just a sad fact of life..c'est la vie..learn to accept it man..

Im pissing everyone off..including myself.. cuz im damn pissed with the world.. ok summary..
one month from my ord, i was arrowed to go for an exercise, together with many people. in the end, all the active pangseh except for me. after that, I had to go through 2 debriefs, and spend hours in front of the stupid com watching the stupid video back and forth and think of what went wrong...
and three weeks from my ord, im supposed to be clearing leave..but tmr which is a sunday, im on duty..
and i cant sleep cuz i have to prepare for the 3rd debrief, which is something that is really not within my personal ability to complete, and i dont have the option of saying no, and i dont have any help.
so day after tmr, which is monday, i have to go for imt in the morning, rush back in the afternoon and discuss the details for the stupid debrief, which again will mean any overtime and more sai gang.
and tues im on duty again. so means no going home again
and wed im conducting some training, which means i'll prob reach home arnd 11, just nice to get 6 hrs of sleep.
cuz thur morning i gotta reach camp by 7 to go for stupid range. and it will end past midnight which prob means i gotta stay in..
fri is basically a repitition of thur. but i pray i get to book out to at least spend the night at home. cuz....
sat, which is hari raya btw, im on duty again...
(btw, just in case u are wondering, these are not extra duties, but routine duties allocated to me.ya ord personnel..tell me abt it man..and according to directives im not even supposed to do any duty.)
all this shit, 3 weeks from my ord, when others are halfway thru clearing their leave..
pls tell me that life is fair and everything's gonna be alright.
im going crazy..